The Human Design System helped me discover my true self

Many of my friends know that I have recently become fascinated with the Human Design System, and I have vowed to collect 100 charts as part of my own personal study and for the benefit of others. However, if I myself have not yet had my own chart analyzed by a professional Human Design analyst, how can I read and interpret other people's charts? Therefore, last week I was fortunate enough to have Mr. Rick Chen, a well-known Human Design YouTuber and certified professional analyst from the International Human Design School, explain my chart to me.

I should mention that my fascination with the Human Design System began around September of last year. I have watched numerous videos and visited many websites of Human Design analysts, and the IHDS website has many endorsements. So why did I wait six months to find an analyst who does not speak Cantonese and who can only meet with me via Zoom? The answer is that, on the one hand, the analysts I had previously seen did not make my sacral respond, and on the other hand, if it were not for Mr. Chen's videos, perhaps my attitude towards Human Design would have been the same as towards astrology, something to just look at for fun. I do not mean to say that other schools of wisdoms do not have their merits, but Human Design can explain the workings of energy through an extremely logical system. It is not that other analysts are not good, but Mr. Chen's videos are the most selfless and comprehensive that I have seen during this time period, and the content is also very sensitive to the needs of both the individual and society. Perhaps it is because Mr. Chen himself has found his true self and learned to love himself through Human Design that he feels strongly about helping others to find themselves and learn to love themselves as well.

I fully agree with his philosophy that it would be wonderful if everyone could find themselves and love themselves. Therefore, I will strive to achieve this goal with the assistance of Mr. Chen. Now, below is the interpretation he gave me for my Human Design chart:

Energy proportionality

Mr. Chen's first statement is that human beings use ratios as a rough standard. Therefore, in my chart, the biggest source of pressure comes from the blank Solar Plexus since out of the nine centers, eight have stable energy. Due to my design having a higher proportion of integration circuit (34-57, 57-10) and individual circuit (43-23, 28-38, 10-34) compared to other channels (there are seven out of eight channels), as well as having a stronger Heart center, when emotions arise, I tend to avoid seeking help from others, try to use logic to suppress my emotions, and even endure unpleasant situations due to fear of conflict. The combination of these three situations results in a stronger rebound effect the more I suppress my emotions, and accumulating more events will lead to a more powerful eruption, and the worst part is that others will not be aware of it until I explode, which can be inexplicable to them. This situation of being entangled often occurs with me, especially when it comes to people who are closer to me or relationships that I value more. As I place more importance on a relationship, my open Gate 49 (a "big sister" role gate) in my Solar Plexus center is constrained. Simply put, even if there are things I do not want to do or do not like, I am afraid that my rejection or actions will change the relationship, and I choose to compromise and use willpower to endure. My tendency to be a pushover can also be seen in my 6th Line in the black North-South cross, and on the other side of Gate 49 is Gate 32, which pushes me to force myself into doing what I "should" even if I feel bad.

However, when I retreat to a certain extent, it is easy for me to explode with everything I have suppressed when the other person crosses my bottom line. Due to the relationship of Gate 49, this point of explosion usually has to do with whether the other person is taking me seriously, respecting me, or bullying someone I consider important, and it will be magnified by the undefined Solar Plexus because the undefined center is more sensitive to other people's energy. For many years, I was very self-disgusted with myself when I had emotional outbursts like this. On one hand, I wondered if I lacked flexibility because very few things could make me angry. I wanted to find logical ways to suppress my emotions. On the other hand, when I had no emotions, I wondered if normal people needed to show emotions to defend their position. "Acting" too much led to a real explosion.

Mr. Chen used a metaphor.Every time he visited a friend, he would buy some snacks. One time, he bought a red bean wheel cake, which his friend actually did not like, but he pretended to like it so as not to make Mr. Chen feel bad. As a result, every time Mr. Chen visited this friend, he would buy a red bean wheel cake. One day, the friend finally exploded because his inner cry was, "Why do you always force me to eat red bean wheel cakes?" But because the reasons were too complicated, he couldn't say it out loud. On the other side, Mr. Chen was confused and wondered why the friend was angry over just a wheel cake.

"Karmic energy" is a subject that requires repetitive learning

The channel of the salesperson from 26 to 44 is the only channel in my design for collective circuit, who value rank and loyalty but play a double-edged sword in my design. In my black design, 44 has opened twice, influencing me in both the rising and falling positions. The 44 gate has an instinct for knowing what others want, and the position of 1 line (44.1) can use this intuition to establish structure. The ascending can use this advantage to build and manage groups, while the descending side deliberately disregards intuition to avoid conflict. Gate 26 is even more interesting as it is a forgetful gate. The rising of 26.4 and the falling of 26.2 are located respectively in the positions of Uranus in my red and black designs. The rising 26.4 enables me to forget painful experiences and maintain my own strength, while the falling 26.2 makes it difficult for me to accumulate relevant experience after pain.

Mr. Chen calls this "forgetful" part of me "karmic energy." Karmic energy, in his mouth, has no religious connotation but simply refers to repeating doing something with the expectation of getting a different outcome. Indeed, every time I fall on an emotional issue, either by sending a message and then retracting it or by agreeing with someone before having a chance to react, I repeat the same mistake.

"When you feel like you have nowhere to go, you should tell yourself to put your feelings first. I also have the right to choose."

Since I have a split definition, the gates that can quickly connect my two areas are my pressure points. I have two pressure points, one is gate 20 in the throat center - present moment, and the other is gate 7 in the G center - army. So I often force myself to respond in the present moment for every matter, and because I'm afraid of not having anyone under me, I sometimes make decisions in haste and trust the wrong people.

In addition, I also asked if I should submit to the design of friends or family members if I knew they had certain talents, such as the 5-15 rhythmic channel. Mr. Chen also gave a very affirmative answer that each of us should follow our own design and always put our feelings first. Even if others have their own talents, we cannot ignore our own feelings to become the best version of ourselves to fulfil others' desires.

Profile and the Cross of Reincarnation

Before discussing the channels of talents, I would like to take a moment to discuss the profiles. Recently, I watched a video on YouTube where the speaker claimed that the Human Design Chart was a scam. However, with his interpretation of the "profiles," he intended to prove that the Human Design Chart is merely a cold reading technique. I do not believe that he had any ill intentions, and even before meeting with Mr. Chen, I thought that the profile represented who I am. However, I would like to clarify the matter for the speaker. The profiles are derived from the sun and earth lines on each person's red and black side, as the sun is the most influential star and the earth is closest to us. Therefore, our life mission and reincarnation cross are based on these four gates, which affect 70% of our pattern. However, in reality, any gate or channel on our chart can deeply influence us. For example, the red North-South intersection on my chart has the characteristics of the third and sixth lines, which means that I learn from my mistakes, while the black North-South intersection has the characteristics of the first and fourth lines, which means that sometimes I may appear insincere due to my desire to save face. Therefore, each person has unique characteristics based on different lines on their chart.

So, what are the profiles for?

The twelve roles of life are probably the most significant aspect of a person, and the Human Design system categorizes them into three main types based on their life mission interpretation:

Left Angle - Transcending Personal Destiny 6/3, 6/2, 5/2, 5/1

Parallel - Fixed Destiny 4/1

Right Angle - Personal Destiny 4/6, 3/6, 3/5, 2/5, 2/4, 1/4, 1/3

As for myself, I am a 2/5 person, which means that my mission is focused on living up to my design.

My reincarnation cross is in a mutation of equal parts, called "Interpretation 4-43|23, 4|49 of the right-angled intersection." Considering the three points above, my mission is to fully utilize the unique insights brought to me by the (43-23 framework's passage), effectively interpreting them for others with the logical reasoning of gate 4 and the flexible selection of gate 49, laying the foundation for social mutations.

Before I encountered the Human Design Chart, many tools for self-awareness told me that I was very loyal but too emotional. I used to hate myself when I had emotions, thinking that the unpredictable and uncontrollable me was like a monster living inside me, ready to cause trouble at any moment. After learning about the reincarnation cross in the Human Design Chart, I was puzzled for a long time about how this monster (gate 49) in my body could be included to fulfilling my own mission. Mr. Chen used the story of the Legend of the Land and Sea to help me understand that every part of our design is perfect, and it is precisely because the power of emotions is so strong that it is the only open position in my chart. This allows me to use my ability to perceive others' emotions to pay attention to the signals my body is giving me, and choose the right people to explain them to.

I have embraced the "emotions" monster, and I hope that everyone can reconcile with themselves.

Talents and Unilateral Gates

When I reflect on my experiences, the time when I was able to utilize my talents the best was probably during my studies:

The enduring 32nd gate always reminded me to be persistent and instilled in me the belief that if resources are invested, results must be obtained. In addition, the 42nd amplifying gate made me feel that as a student, I should study seriously, strive to excel in both arts and sciences, be active and still, and have good character. Furthermore, the initiating 51st gate ensured that I had enough independence and willpower to overcome difficulties.

28-38: The channels of chaos and struggle have often made me feel that I must have a mission to accomplish in this life. During my student years, I believed that knowledge is power, which propelled me forward.

63-4: The channel of doubt allows me to excel in science because it is a path where I can observe patterns through constant questioning. The channel of structure from 43-23 is also a path where I can see efficiency, suddenly realize things that others do not know, and filter out noise.

26-44: The submissive channel for transmitting messages, Gate 31's influence, and the empty solar plexus have allowed me to excel in humanities, particularly language-related subjects. Due to the empty solar plexus, I am sensitive to others' emotions and underlying meanings, allowing me to adapt my communication accordingly. Gate 26's ability to manipulate language also enables me to perform well in languages.

26-44: Additionally, the submissive channel has the characteristic of taking shortcuts. By relying on this channel, I make sure to use the least amount of effort to complete tasks that can be done with one unit of energy, in line with the efficient thinking from 43-23. For example, I draw diagrams for Chinese history, make simple songs for memorizing dynasties and countries, and create humorous stories for memorizing geography. I cross-validate theories from biology, chemistry, physics, and mathematics.

What's more, with the powerful intuition of Gate 57 and the detail-oriented focus of Gate 9, I always notice critical details before exams and they end up being tested. Finally, before handing in exams, the channel of criticism from 18-58 helps me easily spot any errors. This way, I have encountered little obstacle in my learning journey.

However, studying and exams are highly personal matters, so when my Solar Plexus is not disturbed, I can express myself well. In fact, when it comes to group learning, such as attending cram schools, my grades tend to suffer. Therefore, I sometimes feel opposed to the asian norm for attending cram schools. Furthermore, I believe that my good academic performance is partly due to my own design that happens to align with the traditional education system. I have taken advantage of the predictability of the traditional education system, while my innate talents are put to good use. The education system, in turn, benefits from high-performing students like myself, who are used to persuade everyone that there is only one way to learn.

However, having these traits alone is not enough, as thanks to the line 2s, how I accomplished what I accomplished I do not fully understand. I fear being exposed and often end up with emotional scars, especially with the 43-23 channel (which requires an invitation). In the past, I often spoke out of turn and with a blank solar plexus and a 49th gate of "standing up for justice," along with the 20th gate as a pressure point, forcing me to react in the present moment. This led to a blind spot where I was unable to refuse people who were good to me, while rejecting those who were relatively less favorable. I have cursed at former bosses, trusted the wrong people, and even put my family in danger when I was younger.

At the age of seven, my family resided in the middle floor of a village house with a terrace in the living room that provided an unobstructed view of the adjacent park. One day, when only my younger brother and I were home, I was sweeping the terrace while indulging in my imagination of being a witch from the movie "Kiki's Delivery Service." Suddenly, I noticed a group of high school students using a cutter to carve something into a tree in the park. In that moment, I became irate and vocally admonished them, exclaiming that trees possess a spiritual essence and are capable of feeling pain. My outcry attracted the attention of several adults, who joined in reprimanding the group of students. However, I never considered the aftermath of my actions. In the days that followed, our windows were frequently pelted with rocks, resulting in both my brother and me sustaining injuries from shattered glass. The entire family lived in terror, and we were ultimately forced to relocate. As a result, I learned to remain silent, but suppressing my thoughts prevented me from expressing myself, leading to a long-standing struggle regarding when to speak up and which voice to trust between my gut and logic.

Finally, I would like to express that each individual has a unique design, and I hope that on my journey of studying human design, I can grow alongside my friends. The road ahead may be full of obstacles, and you, as the reader, may disagree with my choices or even feel compelled to find your precise birth time to participate in my 100-person human design project. Regardless, let us walk together on the path of self-discovery, and I wish everyone the best of luck.